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Meanderings and stray thoughts

Hey there! Started writing my own blog and rather reveling in all the ‘creative pursuit’ (at least I thought of it that way!)….

About the same time was when I decided to go into hibernation….and believe me it was that way! Took a month off between jobs…doing what????

Well…the first few days were spent feeling as to how much time I was wasting not doing anything! Does that make sense? In a crazy kind of a way??? Here I was with the break that I had been trying and planning for the last 6 months…and now that I had it, I didn’t know what to do with it….

Oh! But the best part has yet to come! One fine day I woke up at 11.00 in the morning and suddenly there I was…used to the delicious, sinful thought of being completely jobless…..of course I had pending tasks and things to do (still pending by the way J) but what the hell….

Took time off to go visit my parents in Mysore…decided to drive down…Oh! I enjoyed that drive….I’m sure you can relate to the heady feeling, that complete high…when you know for a fact that you have left the city behind…out on the road…traveling for a while…with nothing but just that on your mind! Indescribably amazing! Of course I also met (would encountered be a better word?) some truck drivers on the way…god! What an awful thought to have a woman overtaking them…and just maybe coz just maybe her driving is not that bad!

Came back from a completely chilled out weekend to continue with what else??? The extended weekend…days spent on long (and I do mean long!) conversations in getting to know this very interesting person…more about that some other time…well maybe!

Long drives knowing that I had enough petrol and just about enough cash for an emergency…or being out at a time of the day when the sky looked like what it must ideally look like in heaven…that hint of rain…that hint of the mist hanging in the air….the roads relatively clear of traffic…the slight breeze to just blow through your hair….and just when you thought you couldn’t have it any better…it starts to drizzle! Of course then…you JUST HAVE TO coast along with the day! Drive on, not knowing where you are headed, get down and walk around not knowing where you are. Stop for a coffee and meet some interesting people at the café…just because!

All this lasting for one long month! Ok lets get back to ground reality! I am back at work now…at a new job…with certain insights gained about myself in this past month…wanna read on????

- Taking time out and doing nothing can probably be really productive! Mentally!
- Discovering new things about yourself…can be a really heady feeling
- Giving the time to have that relationship develop (the one I keep promising to write about!)…lets put it this way…it can put a smile on my face anytime…anywhere!

Take that time out….just because….justa!

Comments

dm said…
Welcome back to the blogosphere, Anz.
Would love to read how you describe this interesting...relationship....
{broad smile, wink}
3:26 PM
Anamika said…
Hey Devs!

Thanks for that! As regards the ahem...interesting relationship...doesn't that say it all???? Keep reading...I just might let something slip ;-)
5:05 PM
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